fAculty oF mINd...

i was too obedient. i followed wut my mom wanted me to be. well, i would like to be a journalist. that was my ambition. my dream. and it still be my dream. until now. kadang2 terkilan jugak. frust sgt, bila terfikir balik. when i told tis story to my frens, they would say " knapa x go on je? knapa ikut sgt mak ko?"

hum, it wasn't easy actually. tp aku understand why people are sayin it. recently, aku chatting wif 1 old friend. shes kinda good friend to me before. when i still studying kt badlishah.haha! i think u guys can guess it. hum..she is a masscomm student. a senior year student. goin to be a journalist in a short time. i dun care bout it. its her luck.

but wut i coudn't stand is, die brag. brag yg bukan2 plak tu.

sya_babygurl (21/10/2008 22:01:10): ha jap nk gtau
sya_babygurl (21/10/2008 22:01:12): ahad hari tu aku gi melodi
sya_babygurl (21/10/2008 22:01:21): jumpa fara fauzana,wahid and nabil
sya_babygurl (21/10/2008 22:01:32): masa tgh on air tu kitorang ade
sya_babygurl (21/10/2008 22:01:45): bes wo
sya_babygurl (21/10/2008 22:01:46): hehe
sya_babygurl (21/10/2008 22:01:54): ni yg bestnya jadi masscommers

ok..perlu ke untuk ckp besar cmtu?? 4 syariza..if u didn't mean to say that..its ok. cuma ak sikit tersinggung..i've been thinking bout ur words for days..i try to convince maself. "oo..she didn't mean it..yeah..she didn't!".ko buat mass comm..and aku buat biochemistry. its our own way.my brain, ur brain..those are different.u dont have to brag like that. n my mind kept wondering why would u do like that.i never do it to others coz i thought, im not the greatest one. ade yg fly smpi ke russia..england..studying medical..all sorts of that..they never mention.

fyi, ive met alot of artists. more than wahid, fafau, nabil.. since sis aku, is a journalist.so, ak xnk ckp besar.malas. sorry syariza. u r my fren. u r "sejahtera".whom i love all d time.hope u didn't change.it just that, aku sikit terasa n tersinggung. kite ikut jalan kita, face our own life. thats it. ak redha, ak xdpt capai my dream. but im happy now.eventhough the frustated is still there, but im happy dgn the way i am.happy dgn wut im having rite now.

~malayneum by butterfingers~

"experiment a little bit

ur blood is red mine is too

ur brain is cornybut mine is worthy

just deal with it right away

deal with it the right way "

~peace no war~

mia

sHoppIn Is kiLlin' mE!

ats sum reasonable reason. aku a lil bit "mewah"...compared to others. if not, time2 cmni, mmg kne puase. ptptn will never enough for ma life along d semester...serious. bukan aku je k. mane cukup! i go shopping. luv to shop! byk kali plak tu!so now, thats how it relates. mewah....plus suke shopping.... ah, perasaan yg sgt bagus!

Fariza said, shopping is d best therapy! yup! agree! hehe....but she can lock herself in her room and save up after spending lotz. me? i cant!!!! now thats d prob! i'll keep maself shopping all d time. meaning all d time man... awal bulan. middle ke, hujung bulan ke..tp bukan sengaja. mmg..niat nk save lpas shopping yg terlalu byk. tp after some days..went out and beli lagi! beli lagi! beli lagi! and tis is killin me!

las friday, went out by maself. to d curve. bli, jeans...shirts..
hehe..byk lg sbnrnye. tp xbrani nk list out. censored sket. takut nnt ade harimau yg terbaca tis post. menaning, im dead!

i dunno how can i do that! seriously..perasaan guilty sbb shoping dgn byk dtg for a while je. sehari dua...ma mind dh mula bertindak. "ala...dont think bout how much u hv spent. think bout what u hv got. what u ve bought..berbaloi kan??" and then...i will continue ma shopping! ahhhhhh!!!! pliz. safe me! mcm mane ni?advice plizzz....fariza! u seem so good in this.huhu~~

kAWan OR... sahAbAt??

sumtimes..ive been thingking bout friends..kawan yg aku ade skunk, betol2 ikhlas ke nk befriend ngn aku?? boleh ke diorg stay wif me bila susah.bila senang. diorg trust x aku 100%?? diorg appreciate x ape yg ak dh buat..apa yg aku dh bg..apa yg aku dh korbankan? coz, me, i dunno wut people r saying, i think aku ni bukan la bagus sgt..but ive done ma bes in relationship. friendship especially. salah silap sikit2, xbleh la nk elak. kite human. not that perfect. tp dh takdir kan. we will never kno. kdg2 tuhan nk uji kite. tuhan nk tunjuk, yg die bukan kawan yg sepatutnya, yg suitable utk kite. yup, ak percaya itu. from situ, aku sgt careful in making frens, in choosing frens. so, get to know ma buddies..sahabat2 aku. ini sahabat2 aku yg aku pilih, dgn hati aku.

hum...bleh dikatakan, aku byk sgt pengalaman dgn manusia yg bergelar kawan. n manusia yg bergelar sahabat jugak.after all, wif things yg happened, i have ma own perception bout kawan and sahabat. klu dlu, aku easily make a fren as a buddy. zaman2 aku dulu...geng2 ni sgt popular. so i had 1. biase la, musuh utk sorg member, meaning musuh untuk semua members in d gang. yups! menyeksakan. tp diorg bkn sahabat aku. betol. tuhan tunjukkan. ak tinggal diorg. n mase tu, aku jumpe sahabat aku. akhirnya. NURUL NABISAH HJ MOHD. and ANIS ARZILALALA ARSHAD! hope korg bangga aku mention name ko as buddy aku.heh!

so, life moved on. we make new friends all d time.eventhough sbnrnye kite xperasan pn we r making new frens. but we r. meet a friend, FARIZA ZAINUL ABIDIN. i consider her as ma buddy, sahabat aku even aku rase, rite now, if die baca ma post, sure die wondering. how come?? kitorg xkarib sgt kot. rapat ye la. not sharing everything wif her like i shared wif cah. but i got ma own reasons, making her ma buddy. seriousla. stop thinking why fariza....haha!

next, aku further ma study. meet NURUL AIN MAZNI. yups. shes ma buddy too. real sahabat. tah. shes kind of understands me more than other peple kot. haha. me too. aku rase, aku phm die kot. yeke ain??shes wif me, mase susah n senang. masa sakit n sihat. masa aku perlukan die. eventhough baru 2 tahun lebih kitorg kawan..but, obviously org bleh nmpk, yg shes ma sahabat.
sedih sgt, nex sem kite dh xstudy sama2. 1st time ni.huhhu.. MIMI SHAREEZA SOHIMI. ni sorg lagi buddy yg sengal.ahaha!! hum, actually aku kenal die pn from 1 of ma exroomate. tah mcm mana la kitorg boleh got close together. die mcm ain. susah sng dgn aku. bukan hilang and senyap suddenly, bila aku ade mslh.

actually, im glad to hv em wif me. ak ade byk lg kawan2 yg sgt rapat dgn aku. rapat. maybe i need sumting yg betol2 bleh bwat aku rase, "ah! yeahhhh...ure ma buddy!" n aku jugak ade byk kawan yg sekarang bukan kawan aku lg. whether aku tinggal diorg, or diorg tinggal aku. ahaha!!why? sbb ketidakpercayaan, jealousy.. lost 1 las year.ntah la. thought die sgt trust aku, since ak dh kawan dgn die nk dkt 5-6 tahun. tp ape nk bwat kan. die dh xnak kawan dgn aku. sbb, xpyh la aku nk jelaskan.

aku, ikhlas kawan dgn semua org. ini sincere statement aku. kalau mulut aku kata tu kata ni. mmg mulut aku mcm ni. kalau aku byk sakitkan hati korg, sorry. sorry sgt.tp ape2 pn, korg stil kawan2 aku. carila aku bile korg ade mslh n rase aku boleh tolong korg. bile korg senang, nk igt aku, igt la, kalau xigt, memang nk kne blasah! hahha!! for everyone, thanx 4 being ma frens..
for sahabat2 aku, thanx 4 being here, right by ma side, eventhough kite jauh. thanx 4 every support,advice, prayer, n time untuk aku. aku appreciate korg. hope korg appreciate aku ek! (nt aku sorg2 je syok sendiri.huhuhu~~~)

hope our friendship will never ends.
amin....

mia

melaka..melaka....

dgn ain...kat dlm MENARA TAMING SARI! bes sgt!
aip, A Famosa!

posing chantek kat menara lagik!

bella...aini..and me in front of A Famosa..

view of muzium kapal from menara!

hahaha....rase nak upload all pics dlm ni.hah!
tapi cukup la kot sikit2 kan..

hum, tis is melaka!

for those yg haven't been here lagi.....

go and check it out!

utk aku, warganegara malaysia...melaka ni, dh 4-5 kali..

but, mcm mane melaka boleh terlintas kt kepala?

dunno..suddenly, rase nak visit sgt melaka!

so..las sunday, i went there wif ma 3 frens.

bella....ain...aini!

eventhough mase mmg terhad.

like i mentioned in last post,

tp xbleh! kne gak spent skit mase. sbb dh sgt teringin.

smpi mimpi2!hehe...

fun sgt! mcm xpenah pegi la melaka tuh!

cara we took all d pictures..like kitorang ni,

tourists yg dtg from zimbabwe...hahaha!!!

as usual..sure visit a famosa...muzium kapal..

byk....byk sgt! but d best part is Menara Taming Sari.

tis is new man..but best siot!

boleh view d whole melaka sambil pusing...

sgt perlu visit ok. dtg melaka, gi menara ni.

pastu, leh makan2 kat perkampungan tradisional..
huish..dh cm tourist guide dh.hikhikhik!

nk dtg lg melaka dlm mase terdekat ni!

ye la..kalau dlu...ikut lawatan skolah,

mane sempat nk visit betol2 all d places kann..

haha! puas hati. at least bleh jugak release tension b4 final!

kawan2...visit melaka keh!

MELAKA! U RAWKS!!

TIME IS LIMITED!

FARIZA : sorry sebab xde mase nk meet up..cuti ko 3 bulan. dhla ko once a year je
balik. tp aku xboleh nk spent a lil time pun nk jumpe ko. 3 bulan! even
aku balik kg, ak xboleh jgk nk meet up.

MIMI : sorry sebab xpenah jenguk ko lepas aku moved out. even ko br broke off,
tgh sedih, n perlukan sum1 utk sembang2..tp ak tetap xfree and dah byk
kali aku janji ngn ko..tp xpenah aku nk tunai. sibuk..ade kelas.. dgn
harapan ko understand coz we both face d same thing..sibuk ngn life
kat u.

RYIE N FAIZI : sorry sebab xpenah join ape2 event pn kat dectar tis sem.
sorry sebab selalu reject bile korg ajak lepak. alasan ak..busy..
midsem test la..lab report yg xsudah2 la.. klas smpi ptg la..
but semua tu true sgt. overall nye, i dun have much time to spent
ngn my frenz.time limited sgt. bkn korg je. ramai lg. even
wif my family pn.sorry sgt. korg la yg paling byk ak let down.

limited sgt time yg aku ade. kalau nk list down semua org.. maybe post ak 2day
won't be this short. i've let down byk org. maybe org tu xkisah pn..but aku KISAH!
sori....sori semua...truly..aku memang xcukup mase. 4 myself pn xde.. been bz dgn kelas..lab report..lab practical..revision.. all of this yg bwat aku sgt xde mase utk kwn2 aku. . aku xsengaja. i hv ma own reason,why ive been really focusing on my study.sorry kawan2.SORRY!
LUV U GUYS!

LIFE : UNCHANGED

final nk dekat! so as usual...study till late nite.
bowsan r cmni.. dh bertahun2, n since a week b4 raya lagi cmni!
study,study,study!
PENAT la weyh............ nk muntah r raser.. BWEK!!!!

bile life nk change ni hah?!
kan bes, if life changed everyday..
tiap2 ari bwat bnde lain! sure interesting!
xbowsan..xraser nk muntah!
i wish i can have that kind of life..
tp ade ke org yg berlife cmtu???