fave song at the moment~

Saturday, February 27, 2010


someone new. but becoming more n more important to me. special. in every way. gave me tis song.
not only to listen. but to really go through all d words in it.

the fray
never say never

Some things we don't talk about

rather do without
just hold a smile
falling in and out of love

ashamed and proud of
together all the while

you can never say never

why we don't know when

time and time again
younger now then we were before

don't let me go [6x]

picture, you're the queen of everything

far as the eye can see
under your command
i will be your guardian when all is crumbling
i'll steady your hand

you can never say never

why we don't know when
time time and time again
younger now then we were before

don't let me go [6x]

we're falling apart
and coming together
again and again

we're crawling apart
but we pull it together
pull it together, together again

don't let me go [6x]

don't let me go [6x]

i knew this song. already. never knew it might be so meaningful. might be remembered.
for how long? maybe forever.
to start a new thing. is never get to be easy. but. i trust what my heart said. and i chose to make it start. finally.
im taking a risk. giving a chance for myself and that someone. im looking forward. . hoping for no history repetition in future. . only you, me and HIM know how hard it is.

DEAR SOMEONE (you know who),
even its just started.
lets make this 'new thing' last forever.
may Allah bless us.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

asyik lupa!

i need an assistant!!!

a personal assistant!

asyik lupe je sume bende..........ape neh?!

need sumone yg igtkan n managekan sume bende.

keterlupaan aku ni sgt terukkkkkk~~~

benci! benci! benci!

sape yg sanggup ni....sape...manage me for FREE. boleh??

Monday, February 15, 2010

thank you

To my beloved friends...

Thank you

for believing in me when I found it difficult to believe in myself...

for saying what I've needed to hear sometimes, instead of what I've wanted to hear....

for siding with me....

and for giving me another side to consider.

Thank you

for opening yourself up to me....

for trusting me with your thoughts and disappointments and dreams....

for knowing you can depend on me and for asking my help when you've needed it.

Thank you

for putting so much thought and care and imagination into our friendship...

for sharing so many nice times and making so many special memories with me.

Thank you

for always being honest with me...

being kind to me...

being there for me.

Thank you for being a friend to me in so many meaningful ways.


Sunday, February 14, 2010



ak dh ckp ape yg terbuku dlm ati aku.

thanx sbb memahami...


mlm td tido nyenyak. wlupon lambat. kol 5 br tido.


i hv to make another confession to sumone else~

tis one is harder.

i hope tis is d right decision.

n i hope everyone understands it.

wish me luck!

Friday, February 12, 2010

agen menjodohkan orang!

ak mmg suke la bwt keje ni..2kali mission ak dh bwt. 2-2 berjaye! smpi skrg dorg stay together ok!hehehe..eventho close friend ak sorg ni...aka mangse terbaru aku ni ade la nk menjodohkan aku ngn seseorg ni..tp ak jodohkan die dulu! crossmatch..boleh???!haha~

mission ape yg aku katekan neh??? mission menyatukan org la!!! sasaran ke3 aku ade lahhhhhh NORLIN SABUTI (bibit) dan MAZLAN MD NOR ( lann).hahahahahahhahah! trg2an aku tulis! amek korg! korg dh bg kebenaran..ak xlepaskan peluang laaa~mission dijalankan secare senyap pada mule2nye la. n lame2...reveal sket..sket...ngahahahah! aku suke..aku suke...bibit ni konpem blushing bile bace nehhh..hahhaha! jgn la maluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! hahahah!

so dorg 2 org yg terbaru ni..very close ngn aku. lann labmate aku. ak ape masalah pon cter die. so aku paham la sket2 lann ni..nk setahun da kot bwt lam same2..no worries bibit. haha. bibit plak secara xsedar mmg rapat la ngn aku.dr love die jugak aku ni sbnrnye.disamping macik.haha! jnji ak syg dorg 2 org...hahahha!ak syg sume la! sume kwn2 aku!heheheh~

so ape methodologi aku..itu sulit beb..klu x, nt ak dh xjd agen yg berjaye dh la..rahsia2 tips2 ak korg dh amek..nt korg caras aku!ngehehehe~ janji skrg..LOVE IS IN D AIR.bwek3!!! ha! blushing 2-2 org!blushing! haha! korg taw x? korg konpem xtaw. aku happy giler dowwwwwww! mlm smlm ak ngn farhana sumiran ( macik) akak rum8 bibit tergelak golek2 bersame2. kat ym plak tuh. melihatkan dan membace gelagat2 mereka2 ber2.xbleh blahhhhh~~~=))

dorg dh lame kawan....so..ape susahnye kan? dh kenal..dh rapat..lg sng nk sangkot! haha! yg lann ni xpenah becinte.. jadinye die memerlukan dr love! sape? hahaah~konpom la akuuuuuuuuuuu..bluweeeekkkk!! tlg mane patot je eh..korg yg len2 ni pon klu nk nasihat aku..bleh je ON CINTA ke 32567. hahahahhaha~ so harap2 mission ni berjaye ah! nmpk cm dh berjaye jek.ngeh3~~ jgn rush2..drastik2..rilek2 suda..ati pmpuan ni..die xbleh tekezut2..agagag~haa....ni tips ke 412 volume 3.hhahaha~


aku? tu la ak nk ckp. bes bwt keje ni. bile skrg ak tgk 2 kapel yg dh ak tolong dlu tu still loving2 lg..nk nanges terharu pon ade. even smpi skrg dorg contact aku lg..sbb ak suke tlg kwn! n tgk kwn2 yg aku sayang happy..ak xsuke tgk kwn2 ak kecewa..sbb ak taw sgt phm sgt perasaan dorg.

mcm2 dh aku lalui. jadinye..bile ak nk melancarkan misi...kne berhati2! tp bile bwt bnde ni..ak akn mndgr suare2 laen...konpon tny. "asyik jodohkan org je..pikir diri sendiri jugak mia.." haha! ak xpenah ade luck in love life. jadinye..ak xnk la susah2 nk pikir pasal aku. jnji kwn2 aku happy dh cukop dh. xpyh pikir pon xpe aku rase. nnt jodoh tu dtg sendiri la. ak malas nk cari. sesungguhnye ak dh penat. ak nk rehat. hehehe~

so...lan n bibit. gudluck k! ak dh bagi jalan tu...jalan la elok2 k. semoge berkekalan..ak taw xde pape lg antara korg..slow2 la..ni kan hal perasaan..ne leh pakse2 kan?! sori ek tertype name korg trg2..xleh nk backspace dh. keyboard aku ade yg rosak2.hahahah!
untuk korg2 yg nk khidmat aku...boleh2.gtaw je. ak skunk dh ade pembantu..puan farhana sumiran. jadinye keje aku akn lebih smooth n steady je lepas ni.xpyh bayaran. cz happiness korg tu la bayaran utk aku.poyooooooooooooooooooooo!hahahhaha!

till then folks!

Monday, February 8, 2010

tidbit for mind

today.. i got one email from a close friend. after reading it..i think of sumtin. well..if u guys hv already read it..then i juz wana know ur thought bout it. for those who havent..enjoy.its only a simple story..

This story tells us sumthin bout Love n Life......

My husband is S/W Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature and I lov
e the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.

Two years of courtship and now, five years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.

I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings. I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My husband is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about LOVE.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.

" Why? " he asked, shocked.

" I am tired. There are no reasons for everything in the world !" I answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seemingly in deep thought. My feeling of disappointment only increased. Here was a man who was not able to even express his predicament, so what else could I expect from him?

And finally he asked me: " What can I do to change your mind? "

Somebody said it right... It's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered: "Here is the question. If you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind.

Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death. Will you do it for me? "

He said: " I will give you your answer tomorrow.. .." My hopes just sank by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy andwriting underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes....

"My dear, I would not pick that flower for you , but ....please allow me to explain the reasons further....."

This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.

"When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the screen. I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs."

"You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you."

"You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city. I have to save my eyes to show you the way."

"You always have the cramps whenever your " good friend " approaches every month. I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy."

"You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom."

"You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes. I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand...and tell you the colour of flowers, just like the colour of the glow on your young face..."

"Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do ... I could not pick that flower yet, and die ...

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting... And as I continue on reading... "Now, that you have finished reading my answer, and if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk...

I rushed to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread....Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone..

. ******** That's LIFE, and LOVE. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness. Love shows up in all forms; even in very small and cheeky forms. It has never been a model. It could be the dullest and most boring form ... Flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands... AND THAT'S LIFE.

so..wat do u think??!

Sunday, February 7, 2010


mimpi. mimpi org kate mainan tido. tp..bleh ke slalu nk pk mimpi tu tipu2 klu dh kite sndri mengharapkan petunjuk from tuhan bakal disampaikan melalui mimpi? ape aku merepek neh? ape yg ak pecaye..sumtimes..mimpi yg betol2 adelah mimpi yg membawa petunjuk..petanda kpd seseorg pasal sumtin yg gonna happens in future..

storynye cmni...since smlm mmg dh tdo lmbt.....so b4 tdo tu..bwt la solat ape yg ptot..heheheheheh~ ttbe jek ni mia??! haha! saje je... klu korg bc post2 ak yg dlu..idop ak mane penah aman..ngeh3.. jdnye..mne lg tpt ak nk ngadu kan klu bukan DIA..

ak pon pegila tido...tp..ak dpt satu mimpi.....yg ak maseh igt2 lg smpi skunk. bgn tido..slalunye ting tong. tp pg ni..otak ak kne bekerja kuat awal pg sket. ak still menganalyze lg mimpi tu...aku dapat PETUNJUK? ke mainan syaitan je? need sumone to interprete la. klu ak yg pk sndri... kang ak maen lupe jek. .

jadinye ak ni gigih lerrr menggoogle sane sini..nk cari maksod mimpi neh. terjumpe la aku ngn satu BLOG neh......[klik klu nk buke..] ade nk dekat 900 rahsia mimpi kt situ...tp cm xjumpe je mimpi yg cm aku neh! tp tafsiran mimpi dlm blog ni mmg meletop la. nk tegelak pon ade. jd ak cm xbape la nk caye sgt..tp boleh je klu nk gune as informations kan...tp..ak ttp kecewa..gugugu~sigh~~ sob3.

ak hrp itu satu petunjuk dari tuhan. so korg pon bleh guess kan..
mimpi aku konpom sumtin yg best. hahaha~ ape pon..ak xpenah trg2t mimpi ak smpi dh bgn tido,makan,mandi pon masih nk igt lg. tis is d one. jd mesti ade sumtin yg nk dismpaikan kt aku kan? hope for d best! insyaAllah... till then!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

mandi malam~

take bath

reason to take bath?
for me...........bathing rejuvenate d body. i feel fresh after taking bath.
well, others said it makes us look younger.haha! weirdddddd!!!

warm water

but yeah..bile fikir balik...d steam..and warmth from d water..(if u took hot n warm water to bath) can somehow soften and make d skin smooth. true! air suam ni..bukak pores on d skin and toxin bwh kulit boleh kluar and secara xlangsung...bleh elak pertumbuhan pimples2 durjana kt muke...haha!betol.. klu x..xdela mak datin2 artis2 sebok nk masuk spa duduk dalam bilik wap semata2 nk cantik kan?


erm....nape lepas bersukan kene mandi?
my answer : tah. dah peluh2 mesti la kene mandi...klu x..nt masam2 kurap2!
tapi...d fact is..if u do sports..the muscles n limbs will b tense and kinda feel tight.
mandi..boleh melonggarkan ketegangan urat2 korg..so at d same time bwt korg feel relax je.
u will get a good nite sleep. promise! and proven! so..mandila sebelum kite nak tido..
a restful sleep is a confirm dudes~!hehe~


sebenarnye..i love and its my favourite to take bath at nite. dari dulu2 sampai la skrg. sebelum tido mesti mandi. peluh ke..xpeluh ke..wangi ke..busuk ke..it is a must. its like others yg mmg have to brush teeth b4 sleep. i need bath. i neeeeeed it. cakapla ape pon...lantak!hahaha~


slalu dikaitkan dgn mandi malam. padahal pneumonia bukanlah hanya disebabkan oleh mandi malam sahaje. poyonye ayat.hohohoho~
after doing some research.....here some thoughts dat i read..:

* "my parents said as long as not taking shower with cold water then it should be alright. "

* "i have a friend who normally took bath late at nite to make him awake for study, later kne
paru2 berair."

* "take shower just to clean yourself up. its no harm i suppose. i do midnight futsal and took
shower after games anyway. just to clean the sticky sweat."

* "i used to take bath before going to sleep iregardless warm or cold water back in 20 years ago
till i reach 30. when i was around 27, all sort of problem start kicking-in. i tend to have body
ache, muscle pain, bone pain, joins pain, difficulty in breathing. I see a doctor first and
therapist later when i was 30. I was advice to stop taking cold or hot shower at night before
sleep and i did. Now i had stop taking shower before sleep for like 2 years now...no more back
pain, body ache, joints pain or shoulder pain. i immediately take shower after reach home and
dinner which is 8pm.

* "Taking a shower at night won't kill you. Not taking a shower at all will make you stink.
Therefore, the question should be:
1. Would you take a shower at night?
2. Would you rather stink while you get laid or sleep?

mcm2 la yg org kate. some do agree..some dont. untuk aku...xde ape yg bleh prevent me to take nite bath. klu xmndi malam...confirm xboleh tido. nanti akn terjage around 2-3 am and after dat dh xbleh nk tido balek.


ive been diagnosed las august. to have bacteria infection in my lungs. when my friends and family got to know it.....sume ckp..tula..suke mandi malam. it has nothing to do with mandi malam. betol! cuma ape kaitannya.....lepas sembuh...my lung can never b like b4. malam2 sure susah nk breathe..even lepas mandi..its gettin worse. so keadaan dh xsame mcm dlu. klu dlu mndi malam xde kesan pon utk aku. and bronchitis bukan disbbkan mndi malam. but now mndi malam mmg xboleh sbb nk elakkan aku dr susah nk breathe. kdg2 malam2..ak xdpt nk tido. satu mlm xtido. tapi........ade aku kesah??!!!!


jgn fikir benda yg negatif je. fikir la kulit boleh cantik..bdn xsaket2...klu asyik fikir pneumonia la..bronchitis la..ape pon xjadi kan?
i know. some might not agree....tapi....korg paham kan??
renung2kan dan selamat beramal!!!